A Nice Memory To-be

So, Today was fun. :) We went over to the Sim's house for swimming. It was freezing. Like. COLD. But it was still fun. It was pretty much just random fooling around, shooting people with water guns and splashing. But idk, I haven't done much of that lately. It made me feel like a kid again. lol. ish. OH. And I found out that they have a lot of spiders near their pool... There was a huge huntsman I think, near the bushes. o.o Ugh. Hate spiders. And like, the noodle, we left it at the side of the pool for a while, and when we looked back, there were about 10 small spiders crawling around it... EW. And then I heard a story that a palm sized spider had jumped onto Denzel's back. And I got kinda freaked. So I was cold, wet and freaked. hahaha. Fun. Oh this reminded me of this: At Uncle Alvin's house, we saw a big huntsman (that's how I knew the other one was a huntsman. They looked the same) at the back of their fridge. Us (me and Tess): UNCLE ALVIN! There's a huge spider over there!! *points* Uncle Alvin: So? *shrugs and does nothing* Us: WHAT? Aren't you gonna do anything about it? Uncle Alvin: No.. o.o What do you expect me to do about it? o.o Us: IDK! Kill it? Bring it outside? Anything?! *stares at spider, terrified* Uncle Alvin: Nope. It's not gonna hurt us. Us: Is it poisonous? Uncle Alvin: Nope. But their bites really hurt because they have big fangs. Us: o.o *speechless* -runs away- OMGSH! Who does that? I wouldn't be able to survive knowing that there was a spider lose somewhere in the house. What if it crawled on me when I was sleeping?!??! Okay, continuing. We took 1 minute showers, ate pizza, played Brawl on wii, mario kart, played guns (as we always do, hey. sounds immature but its fun. srsly) aaand played some soccer. :D Oh and I beat Kendrick in Tap tap. :) And I got to hug Cayden's Bolsty. Though he said I kinda squished it when I sat on it.. hehe. Oh and I went on msn and talked to Isabel for the first time in ages because I haven't been on msn in ages. :P And I played neopets a little. o.o Erica

A few of the billions of thoughts running through my head.

Great. I'm becoming a horrible judgemental person. I miss my cousins. Why can't well all be young and innocent and not spiteful and pure and happy again? I want to go back to the time when I didn't ask questions and just took things the way they were without overthinking everything. I want to be that little girl who got along with her siblings. Although according to my sister, that wasn't even a reality. Apparently we still fought heaps. And the only reason we fight more now is because I developed a brain and a voice and feelings. Okay, fine. I'll even be happy to go back to then. When I was too ignorant to see this and was happy. Feelings complicate things. So I'll just harden my heart till I don't feel anymore. That makes sense right? Sure there's no love or joy but there's no hatred or sadness either is there? Just neutralness. That works, right? Blah, Erica

Shallowness

So, This was weeks ago but I think I'll post it. It's relevant-ish. Say someone doesn't like a part of who they are. Like a trait. And they wanted to change it. Would this mean they were pretending to be someone they weren't? But then again, the part of them that wants to change that trait is still a part of them right? So...? What? Okay. I reckon I can be extremely shallow sometimes and I truly despise that part of me. I put so much importance in such trivial matters that, when I'm thinking rationally, are stupid. Why? And I often find myself looking and caring more about outer appearances than inner beauty and values. Why? I wasn't brought up that way. Nor do I like thinking that way. So why do I do it? I briefly mentioned before that someone pointed this out to me. That person said I acted stupid. Key word here is acted. Which meant that that person was implying that I was doing it intentionally. I don't think it's true. But how would I know? My judgement is impaired and biased. So what if it is? True? Do I act stupid? Thing is, I know I'm not. I know for a fact that I am not stupid. But obviously I did something or acted in a certain way to cause that person to make that comment. So.. I'm not dumb but I acted dumb. In my opinion, that's even worse than actually being dumb. I don't do it on purpose. Maybe I do it subconsciously? But why in the world would I want to portray myself as someone dumb?! Ugh. Either way, I'm disappointed in myself. In who I've become. By who, I mean this shallow egotistical airhead who values outer appearance. And is not to mention mean. Easily angered. Selfish. Holds grudges. And has no grace whatsoever. Oh and is easily offended. I'm becoming everything I ever disliked in a person. Erica

Malaysia

Right, So, I think I did the most in Malaysia during this trip. The 2010-2011 trip. I managed to see everyone I wanted to. :) And got much closer to church friends and old school friends. :)) YU PYN MIGHT BE COMING TO AUSTRALIA!!! heehee. Btw, this isn't in the right order. The Truth or Dare app on my iPhone got used a fair bit. xP We caught the Sims and the Chees for dinner before we left to Japan. It was like old times. Except I got called a bimbo. again. And that I acted stupid. WHO SAYS THAT? Gosh. And it made me question whether I really was like that. Am I like that? o.o But I guess it was fun. Back from Japan, Olivia, Nicole, Lucas, Russell and Bradley came over to Po Po's house. Poker, truth or dare, old fashioned talking and OH umm. I think it was called Ancient Wars? Now that was a fun game. :) And I found out that Lucas, Russell and Kendrick actually talk about things other than video games. Apparently, they talk about 'life'. o.o Interesting. Watch Night at church was like a big huge reunion and we managed to plan to go to Sunway. That was fun too! Took photos, Karaoke, AIR HOCKEY and Bowling. On Sunday, after church, we (Jon, Gerald, Anne Jie, Vern Jie, Xin Jie, Darren, Denyse, Russell, Bradley, Nicole and Lucas) had lunch together and went to Xin Jie's house. More truth or dare. More talking. And a failed attempt to record (Nicole) ourselves singing (Denyse, Lucas and I), piano-ing (Xin Jie) and guitar-ing (Russell). Went to watch Narnia with Yu Pyn, Wei-Yi and Marcus. Ate Carl's Jr burgers. SO good. And went to F.O.S and stayed at the bookstore for the rest of the time there. Went to Yu Pyn's after. Truth or Dare. :) Dinner with Yu Pyn and family. They're very nice people. xP OMGSH THE BUGS! at the restaurant. So we hurriedly left and went to Secret recipe for dessert. CAKE! :DD Dinner at Pizza Uno for Tess' Birthday. And again with Joyee and Jo Teing. It was nice catching up. BOUGHT BUBBLE THINGS! Played bubble things. Reliving my childhood. Pasar Malam! Malaysia will always be called my home. Even though Australia is my home too. Erica

Family Japan Trip

I'd better hurry up and get this over with before I never get round to it. So first off, after the day long detour in Singapore, we finally got to Hokkaido, Japan. It's truly the most beautiful place I've been to. It was snowing everyday and everything was covered in fluffy white snow! It was like magic flakes, swirling all around you. And the thing is, it doesn't make a single sound. It's silent. On one of the days it was actually so deep that it reached halfway up my calf. And it wasn't even that cold! We built 2 of the world's biggest and bestest snowmen, skiied, tobogganed, and just plain played with the snow. Skiing was alright. But we had taken a skiing class and there was a whole lot of waiting and we just kept skiing down the same slope. And my fingers were frozen. But I ain't complaining. Tobogganing was the best. It lasts for a few fleeting seconds where your heart jumps, the snow flies across your face and a giggle or shout leaves your throat before you realize your at the bottom of the hill with a snow path you marked behind you. Oh and buffet breakfast lunch and dinner! We also made cookies, played pingpong, took a heckload of photos, rid on the Gondola (cablecar) and sat in the lounge sipping drinks while eating snacks. -taking a photo- Me: *sticks tongue out* Adrian: *sticks tongue out* -face to face- Adrian: French kiss! Me: ... WHAT?!?!?!? Then we were gonna take a plane to Tokyo. But on the day of the flight, it was snowing so hard that the airport closed.. Instead: 15 minute bus ride > 1.5 hour train ride > switch trains > 5 minute train ride > another airport > 1.5 hour flight Think stressed out parents, tired grandmothers, energetic children running all over the place and a lot. I mean a LOT of luggages. But being the Ng and Tan family, we survived. :) Tokyo was nice. But it's a city. Like Melbourne, like K.L. Bus rides were full of family bonding moments. Playing with Megan, Adrian, Nick and Zach. Talking to Janice. I reckon the best meal was the one we had in the bus. There was a traffic jam and we bought a whole heap of food from this market-y place and ate it on the bus. Megan: BOO! Me: Aaaaah! (pretending) Megan: Awww. Erica no need to be scared, it's just Megan! Megan's 3 btw. Everyone pretty much bought whatever snack they saw. I ate an egg boiled in the springs of Mt Fuji. It's supposedly supposed to give me an extra 7 years of life. They had the BEST bao at this park place. Mt Fuji was colder than Hokkaido. The wind was CRAZY. Basically, the holiday was full of kids, food, photos and running around. It was fun. :) Erica

New Year's Resolution 2011

NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION! (Slighty late but whatever.) Attitude/character wise I shall...

1. Be a better sibling.
2. Be a better friend.
3. Be less jealous of other people.
4. Be more content with what I have.
5. Be more generous. (God told me this year was to be a generous one. :))
6. Learn to be less shallow.
7. Think less. That sounded weird. Okay, not think too much. That's better.

Skill/time wise I shall...

1. Get better at soccer.
2. Practice my flute 5 times a week.
3. Get better at dancing.
4. Learn at least 1 full song on the guitar.
5. Keep up my academic grades.
6. Participate more in school sport.
7. Give my best attempt for the inter-school scholarship.

I think that's about right. It's a lot. But I shall try. :) Signed, Erica Tan

Australian Air

So, Yesterday, I arrived back in Melbourne at about 3.30am. I stepped out of the airport and took a inhaled a big gulp of the fresh Australian air, and there it was. The Australian smell. I used to smell it back when I was living in Malaysia and came to Melbourne on holiday. But then I moved here and I guess I got used to it, and it just wasn't there anymore. I kinda missed it. So now, when I breathed in the cool air, I smiled. And started taking large deep breaths of it. Savouring the feel of it. Imprinting it in my memory. Because soon, I knew, it would be gone again. Funny how I put such significance into something as simple and the air. Mastralian Me. Disclaimer: I stole Mastralian from Kendrick. Maybe I'll just stick to Austlaysian. o.o