A few of the billions of thoughts running through my head.

Great. I'm becoming a horrible judgemental person. I miss my cousins. Why can't well all be young and innocent and not spiteful and pure and happy again? I want to go back to the time when I didn't ask questions and just took things the way they were without overthinking everything. I want to be that little girl who got along with her siblings. Although according to my sister, that wasn't even a reality. Apparently we still fought heaps. And the only reason we fight more now is because I developed a brain and a voice and feelings. Okay, fine. I'll even be happy to go back to then. When I was too ignorant to see this and was happy. Feelings complicate things. So I'll just harden my heart till I don't feel anymore. That makes sense right? Sure there's no love or joy but there's no hatred or sadness either is there? Just neutralness. That works, right? Blah, Erica