'Letting it out?'

Okay, Firstly, Isabel, are you crazy? Or maybe you were just really bored, but what is with those comments???? Anyway, I went to the doctor's the other day (for my ew. face rash) and guess what the doctor said! The chinese doctor said that my fingers, that area always really cold and are like frost bitten, might be because of anger. And that I kept my anger in too much and that that directly affects my health. And then Mum went on saying that I should let it out and tell her. Yes, well, I'm just the type of person who doesn't like 'letting it out' and it has become a habit to bottle it up inside. Just cos it's easier. Plus before that, my mum was talking to her friends, and they said my face rash might be due to stress. Now, that might have a tinge of truth in it. But I'm over depressed, think too much girl and am back to my normal self. Hopefully. It's really stupid, but the more you think about pretty much anything, the more you see the bad things and after you're over it, there will always be this naggy tug at the back of your mind, worried about something that's not there. But then, that's just me. I really need to stop. I also need to stop eating when I'm bored, annoyed, in a bad mood, not hungry, hungry. Pretty much just stop eating when I'm not supposed to. Food is my refuge. And so is my mind. When I'm angry, sad or whatever else, I have a million things running through my head and no one ever hears them. The stuff I blog about are only about 0.0001%. The stuff that comes out of my mouth is 0.0000001%. Another pointless post, Cherrycookie

The Things I am

Hi, I'm currently attempting to beat my record of 7 posts a month. Which only happened like once... But yeah, good to have goal, right? Anyway, this is gonna be one of my numerous pointless posts where i ramble on about nothing. Which is quite fun, u shld try it one day. And I have decided that I like writing down random thoughts that run around in my head like little runny around thing-a-ma-bobs. But I won't do that for now. Here's a list of the things I am. 1. A really obedient daughter. (sometimes annoys the heck out of me that I am) 2. An ok sibling who can sometimes be really mean. (trying to get better) 3. A Christian. (God is Awesome :) 4. A good friend. (hopefully. tell me if i'm not) 5. A thinker who thinks too much. (not to mention usually wrong) 6. An ex-anime crazed person. (That was only for like half a year? I'm now mildly interested) 7. A student. (WELL, if u cut out my bad subjects. like math etc im a good one. sorta) 8. A try-hard. (I'm a tryhard in a lot of things. not proud of it, i must say) 9. A girl. (Well duh. who likes soccer though) 10. A kid. (Well duh. Love being a kid) 11. A teenager. (Yeah, well. it's not all that great) 12. A dancer. (Hardly) 13. A chef/baker/cook. (More like an eater. haha.) The list goes on but I can't be bothered right now. Cherrycookie

The Sims

Whoa. I just read my first few posts and they were really lame and childish. Which is actually what my posts are like now. But still, somehow I feel like they aren't totally childish, but they will later on. I guarantee it. And I also found that I said, "Annoying family friends coming over from Malaysia" Well, I take that back. I love em. They are the awesomest childhood friends ever. Okay, so maybe they aren't exactly my age. BUT they are still the best. All for are really down-to-earth (excluding the amount of electronic games they play) and un-judgemental and just funny. Not to mentions utterly corrupted and random. Denzel's b'day last weekend, BBQ! Soccer didn't help my ankle, but was fun. Erica

Seeing Things

People say people see what they want to see. but when people are paranoid, they see what they don't want to see. But either way, no one really sees what really is there. Which is kinda sorta a bit silly. So how do you see the actual things? Well, I don't actually know, and if I did, I'd be some sort of genius and win the Nobel Prize or something. Okay, not really, but whatever. So, you see, I've been in both groups of people. I was like freakishly paranoid about everything just like a while ago. I thought everyone was against me or something. I know, now it soudns really stupid. But at that time, I was actually like... Scared. Oh well, I've hopefully gotten over that stage. And now, I'm at the stage where I see what I want to see, according to the theory up top. Not much better really. But, hey, what can I do? Elizabethan festival and Social on Friday, Mildly excited, Tim Tan

Random Snap Thoughts

Random thoughts... Don't bother reading this. It's just me raving about nothing. You won't get it, believe me. It doesn't flow. It's totally random and silly and weird. So, yea. If you do, don't laugh or tell anyone to read it. Cos its silly. You can't please everybody, I can't please everybody. It's not possible for anyone to please everyone. I like to be liked, is that so wrong? Thinking too much can make you feel judged. That people are judging you. But then, maybe they are. I'm not scared of dying. What I'm scared of, is people not caring that I died. Ouch. I'm scared people won't come to my funeral or something. I know my family will, cos they are the best and I love them. But still, I would want friends right? My goal is to get a scholarship to Uni. Then, I can travel the world. I wanna be remembered. Being unique is great, like my thumb, it's unique. Skinny, fat, who cares? Funnilly enough, I do. Cos I know how it feels like to be both. Sort of. Being allergic to things suck. I wish I was a little girl again. Although I might have been judged, I had this shield and I wouldn't care. Hate guys who are arrogant and pushy and meddling. Well, at least, I hate the guy in the show I'm watching. Am I annoying? If I am, I need to stop. I talk about food too much. Umm... Okay. I have random thoughts. Tommy

List of 11

Okay, This was my first two weeks back from school. I managed to: 1. Sprain my ankle (OUCH) 2. Go with friends to Epic Youth (They wanted to go. well, it was for school...) 3. Go to Steve's B'day (He was wearing a pink shirt. LOL. Sry Steve, I had to say that, couldn't control meself :) 4. Think too much 5. Go to the park with family 6. Eat tiramisu 7. Eat Sara Lee Apple Danish thing 8. Eat... What else did I eat? Oh yea! Like heaps of omgingly yummelicious Lindt chocolate. Heaps and heaps of it 9. Feel loved and unloved 10. Evaluate things too much (oh wait, its the same as thinking too much. oh well, i do it a lot anyway) 11. Develop a hatred for Linear Graphs and the Coordinate Plane and Gradients etc. A lot of stuff right? There's probably more than that but I can't be bothered thinking right now. TimTan

Low Self-Esteem

So, I'm going through this stage in teenagehood where my self-esteem is really low. That's not good, is it? I'm like really unconfident about things and I start doubting everything. Insecurity I guess... How to get through it? Well, I don't know. I'll get through it eventually no matter what, right? Cos its pretty much just hormones. Right??? I'm feeling better already. Wow, that was short. Cherrycookie