Born with a Weird kind of Disabilty

So, I HATE it when I'm like. Chicken and I can't mouth my thoughts. It's really bad. And annoying the heck out of me. I just can't seem to say things I think might offend people. But then, not saying anything offends them too. Okay, not really. I can't explain. It's like, different. My vocab isn't wide enough for me to put it into words and that's the best I can do... And you know what else I can't do? I can't angrily shout people and vent my anger to anyone but my brother and sometimes my sister. What does that say... It is REALLY annoying. You have no idea. Because I'll bet you can just say whatever you feel and the person might get angry for a while, but get over it. Ot not even care at all. Well, be grateful for it. Because for some reason, I was just born... with this disabilty to not be able to speak my mind when I'm angry. I'm like the best at holding tears in and hiding feelings. Okay, fine. Maybe they do come through a little sometimes. But only to people who know me well. Which, let me tell you, not many people do. And even then, they can't figure out why I'm feeling/acting like that. Because my mind is so complicating and I make up the silliest things that they can't comprehend. Because its so... Silly. Yes, well, that's just me. Btw, Isabel, when I say you, I mean people in general. People who are not me. MY definition is you=not Erica. Wow, I really need to sound less depressing. It's not as bad as it sounds. At least, I don't think so. Tommy