List of 11

Okay, This was my first two weeks back from school. I managed to: 1. Sprain my ankle (OUCH) 2. Go with friends to Epic Youth (They wanted to go. well, it was for school...) 3. Go to Steve's B'day (He was wearing a pink shirt. LOL. Sry Steve, I had to say that, couldn't control meself :) 4. Think too much 5. Go to the park with family 6. Eat tiramisu 7. Eat Sara Lee Apple Danish thing 8. Eat... What else did I eat? Oh yea! Like heaps of omgingly yummelicious Lindt chocolate. Heaps and heaps of it 9. Feel loved and unloved 10. Evaluate things too much (oh wait, its the same as thinking too much. oh well, i do it a lot anyway) 11. Develop a hatred for Linear Graphs and the Coordinate Plane and Gradients etc. A lot of stuff right? There's probably more than that but I can't be bothered thinking right now. TimTan

Low Self-Esteem

So, I'm going through this stage in teenagehood where my self-esteem is really low. That's not good, is it? I'm like really unconfident about things and I start doubting everything. Insecurity I guess... How to get through it? Well, I don't know. I'll get through it eventually no matter what, right? Cos its pretty much just hormones. Right??? I'm feeling better already. Wow, that was short. Cherrycookie

Story of My Life

Okay... So I don't really blog more during holidays. I've been busy-ish. Xin Jie came visiting from Malaysia and we went to Dandenong and the city and stuff like that. It was fun catching up with things back home. We went to eat at The Grand Tofu at the Glen twice in a row. hahaha. So, on the first dinner there, it was just me, Dad, James, Jon and Tess. I was in a not-talky mood and was just unsocially reading my book. Somehow the conversation got to life. I know, random. And everyone was supposed to take turns giving a summary of their 'life'. James said his life was like a rollercoaster... Stuff like that. And well, they asked me, but I wasn't in a talky mood. But if I was, I would've said something like this. ( by the way it was my favourite, best-ever, darling, most wonderful sister TESSA that brought the conversation to life in the first place by raising the question :) My life is sometimes really close to perfect, and sometimes, so far from it that all I want to do is curl up and hide in my blanket. I'm surrounded by people. Mostly good. I think. I'm really fortunate and my motto is. Well, i don't have a motto. But if I did, it would probably have something to do with food and family and friends. I'm trying to make something out of my life and to be remembered by people. Remembered as a person who made difference. A good difference, of course. Eheheheh... But right now, people walk and leave in and out of my life. Writing words, sentences and sometimes, chapters in the book that will be my life. I think it would be an interesting book worth reading, don't you? You can be sure it'll be full of yummy food. :P TimTan

OMG,

I got sooo freaked out yesterday. Or was it the day before? Anyway, as you know, okay, you probs don't, but I just got contacts like a week ago. And I'm supposed to put them on every day to get my eyes used to them. So I was putting them on, and it took a while to ge

Beginning of Holidays

Wow, I am blogging more often... But it'll pass, believe me, it will. It's kinda funny actually. When I went to church a 3 days ago, the pastor was talking about people being addicted to approval. And that everyone has a 'Grand Stand' and they do things for the 'Grand Stand'. I guess I'm sorta like that. They say I have to get everyone OFF and leave jsut God there. Makes sense I guess. He already knows what I'm really like, so what's the point in changing, right? He knows what I'm thinking, so even if I didn't say it out loud, because I knew it wouldn't please others, or it would make things awkward, he would know anyway... Did that make sense? Oh well. Oh yea, I got baptised!!! On Sunday. 13th of September 2009. Yay! The water was really hot, cos it was a heated pool. Hahahah. Fingers are cold cos my gloves are in the wash... TimTan

Short cos the last one was long

Oh yea, I got contacts. I know, weird. It's only because I got this weird rash thing from glasses. Which was annoying. It's quite freaky, sticking your finger in your eye to get it in... I'm fairly proud of meself actually, cos I managed to get the contacts in within 3o minutes. :) On the third day though...

2 b'days during holidays. What pressies to get?

Cherrycookie

I think I think too much

The LAST day of Term 3 of Year 8 of 2009 of PLC in Melbourne is OVER!!!!!!!!!!!! It will never come again. Let us spend a few moments reflecting. Ok, ew, we do enof reflecting in school. haha. I promised I would post more often (at least I think I promised...), and I will try really hard to keep that promise which i might and might not have made. I will get serious now. I'm sort of hoping Isabel won't read this because she'll probs think I'm silly, which she often does already... But she probs will still read it... Oh well, I guess I won't mind that much. I'm only singling her out cos I think she's the only one who actually reads this. So, have you ever felt like excluded? Well, no, that's no the word. This is hard to explain. I don't know if people can see it, but I try unbelievably hard to become someone likable. Someone who is lovable and easy to talk to, fun to be with, loyal, un-annoying etc. Someone with a strong character and an interesting personality. Someone who made a difference to people. Like a good Christian, I guess... Or like the people in movies. I keep shaping myself to be that 'perfect' person, but somehow, it doesn't work. I know I'm probably thinking too much, but somehow, I'm not and will never be 'totally' part of the friendship group I'm in now. I've told Bell this once, in Math, and she brushed it off, and saying I had this in common and blablabla. I believed her at that time, but I just don't know. All my friends are awesome and they're really nice and stuff but well... somehow, I don't fit perfectly. I get really scared sometimes that people won't care if I left. See, there's Jess and Vic, who are besties and have been friends since forever, and have heaps of memories together. Then there's Mango, Isabel and Viv. Glendol people. Viv and Isabel always seem really close, and they like whisper to each other during lunch. Kate's always talking to Isabel too. Okay, I'll admit it, I'm jealous. Just a little. And somehow Jess also talks to Isabel and Viv and they have they're own conversations. I don't know what about. Still slightly jealous. I kno I'm being silly, but still. It's not my fault I feel this way, is it? Will I ever actually feel like I belong though? I did in Malaysia... But I was younger then. Ugh, I wish I was a little girl again. Life was less complicated. I think I think too much Tommy Tim Tan